Not a good start to the week
(lol to this charming emoticon)I woke up Monday morning feeling fantastic, went to the gym had an awesome session and then about noon it hit me like a ton of bricks. I was ill, I couldn't keep anything down. It was stressful because I needed to keep my food in to keep my muscles from breaking down!
Tuesday morning I was able to eat again but I needed rest, so no gym yesterday. Lucky JD is so wonderful he wrote up a program session for me today, this way I didn't miss out on training any bodyparts.
When I wake up in the mornings I have this silly ritual of going straight to the mirror, lifting up my top and seeing whats there lol. Yesterday I think was a little preview into my comp day. Due to all the fluids I lost the day before I had a full, cut 6 pack. I actually freaked out because I looked like I lost heaps of weight overnight!
Anyway, I am better today and am in a really good head space right now too considering what I have been through. I have been working extremely hard for this comp and it has paid off because I am ahead of schedule now and am allowed to scale back a little on cardio and have a little more to eat throughout the day. I even got to have a carb meal on Sunday night woohoo. So that's great. But will she do as she's told?
At least I don't have to kill myself with each and every cardio session anymore. That takes off heaps of pressure and it allows me to really focus on my weight training which I am firing through with more PB's. I am feeling so very stronge and love my sessions more and more each day.
It's so weird being this lean lol, I have never been this way in my life and it takes some getting used to. It's funny because I have always dreamed about being thin, for as long as I can remember I thought it was the most important thing. Life would be completely different if I was thin. Lol what a joke. Life is still the same, nothing has changed except for my size. Everyone I know still treats me the same, im still me.
It really is important to be happy with who you are and not let your weight determine your happiness. Take it from someone who has been dieting from early teenage years until now. It has taken me this long to get the body I have always dreamed of thanks to Josh Dickinson's guidence I was able to do it correctly and safely. So putting the comp aside for one minute, I am happy with my new physique but I now realize I didn't have to be that down on myself before. I have lost years on being down about my weight for nothing. Just having being taught the correct way to eat is a gift for me. I know I can maintain a healthy weight and be the size I "want" to be. It wont be this size that's for sure!
I want a boob job!!!! I have lost them :-( a major downer that.
As for the comp, I have to tell you things have changed for me in that respect too. The only thing that was important to me when I started the comp prep at 16 weeks out was, "I want to place", I so badly wanted a trophy. And I can't believe this but that dosen't worry me anymore. I have won my own comp, I have acheived something I never thought I could. So when I do get on stage in 3 and half weeks, it will be to try and overcome something else I could never do, and thats stand up in front of a crowd! This is terrifing for me but I have to do this. And I really want to try and enjoy the experience.
I can't believe how much I have grown through this experience. I moved here (Gold Coast) on the 7th October last year. And if anyone had of told me on that day that I would be competing in the INBA exactly one year to the day, I would have wet myself laughing at them.
But little did I know what was around the corner. Josh Dickinson has helped change my life, and blog world has kept the momentum of it going.
I have made awesome friends here and look forward to seeing more of your guys in person.
There is nothing worse then catching a bug. I wish that I had caught one at gym tonight (will explain in my post a little later tonight).
Yep, the boobs definately go with the fat loss, since they are made up of mostly fat tissue. Bummer hey, FYI if you do get a boob job done it is one of the best investments that you will ever make. ;)
Have a great night, I had best be packin up my laptop from work & headin home to set it up again.
Posted by
Tracey |
7:19 PM
Deb,
What a great post. Glad you are feeling better!
You sound so much like me before 1st comp - ready ahead of time. I am way behind now and sh**ting bricks ;(
I'll be there with you no matter what ;)
Hugs
Liz ;)
Posted by
LizN |
10:01 PM
Ohhhhh my favourite girl's growing up, I am so proud! :o)
I started my journey as a D Cup and I don't dare find out what size I am at the moment. LOL!! Not to worry though, I have a plan. ;o)
I am so glad to hear that you've finally arrived psychologically to a happy place as I knew you would. It just took time and patience. :o) xo
Posted by
Anonymous |
9:03 AM
P.S. I've left something for you on my blog. ;o) xo
Posted by
Anonymous |
12:57 PM
Sorry to hear that you are not well, I hope that you manage to get rid of it quick. Sounds as though you are going really well despite of it, I am so glad that you are a head of schedule, that should make things a tad easier from now on in! Go Deb!!!!!
Posted by
Jehanne |
1:21 PM
Yucky, I hope you have gotten over your illness. Nothing worse than going great guns and then coming down with something. On the good side though, you can eat more!! hehe.
It's great to hear that you are feeling much better and are in a positive mind-set.
I'm the same as you.....a trophy means nothing to me now....my main goal now is to actually just get up there on that stage and look the best that I ever have. As long as I've got some decent photos to take away from all this and show off, I'll be happy (but that said, placing would be nice too lol).
Re your nerves....you should get a group of your work colleauges together and do your routine in front of them...that might get rid of some of your nerves. I'm contemplating doing that!
On the booby front....I had mine done a couple of years ago so if you want any info, let me know (my surgeon is based in QLD).
Good luck with the remainder of your training and I can't wait to see your photos.
;o)
Posted by
Cherie |
1:56 PM
FANTASTIC!!!!
Sounds like you are coming along in leaps and bounds:)
Even with the set back of illness you have managed to see through the negative and pull out a huge positive :) and your mindset is amazing aspecially about now just feeling happy with what YOU have accomplished and not worrying baout the trophy thats huge :)
Gosh i think i am babbling LOL
Keep up the fantastic work hun:)
Em:)
Posted by
Em |
4:04 PM
What an awesome attitude and an awesome post!! Wow you really are just steaming along Deb, you are such an inspiration! How great that you are ahead of schedule too - that must make you feel a little more at ease.
Hope you are over your bug now lovey, cant wait to see you on stage in October!!
Hilary xx
Posted by
Miss Positive |
6:05 PM
Yep, I have a plan re the boob job too!
Sounds like the prep is flying along - what QLD shows are you doing? I will come watch.
lisa
Posted by
Lisa |
7:04 PM
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