My Future?
I can't believe how much thinking I have been putting into this competition. I can't express my thank you to everyone who has been supporting me through this 12 week program aswell.
Josh Dickinson is an amazing PT. He spent alot of time going over things with me last Friday and I am so thankful for his time on that. It has had a huge impact on me.
It wasn't until today that I now realize that I have completely let this whole entire dream of mine consume my life. It shouldn't be this way, I think it is a little obsessive. I am only on my first ever 12 week program and today I started week 9, I have 4 weeks remaining. I look at my self now and expect to see someone who can almost be ready to stand on stage. But all I see is "oh my god! you are kidding yourself" right? Sooo not ready for any stage.
Anyway I think what I need to understand is (and im guessing here) that the program I am doing right now is not like a competitive program. Perhaps an insite into it which is different.
I am feeling really frightened about not making anymore changes now. The first 6 weeks were going to be noticeable but now I am not so sure. The fat wont move anymore.
So going back to my communication with JD. He asked me to pick a date for my first comp. This frightened me and excited me at the same time. I am hoping for this October.
After a weekend at home with my wonderful boys (hubby and son) I realized how many sacrifices that will need to be made. For me the hardest part about dieting and training comes down to only one thing, lack of energy. This is what kills me. I can't function very well. I have a business to run, a son who is active and a household to help maintain.
Eating the right food is the easy part, not eating junk food is easy to. Going to the gym 5 days a week is not a problem as all this is a part of life, I made it a part of my everyday program and it runs smoothly that is until there isn't enough fuel in my body for me to put one foot in front of the other. If this is how I feel now, how will I get through the comp diet?
I still have so much to think about and so much to try and understand. Sometimes it's hard to get the answers I am looking for. Is it taboo? Or is it something you have to find out for yourself?
Trying to find out information about this sport is not easy, you don't want to overstep the mark with a question about what exactly one eats 4 weeks prior to comp incase it is a secret to their success or something. Maybe I am being overly cautious about the whole thing.
It feels like I am walking through this with a blindfold. I just like to plan ahead, I want to know what's coming or what to expect.
So do I pursue this dream of competition bodybuilding? I guess I will wait to complete my 12 week program and TRY to find out more about it before making my decision concrete.
JD advised me to go and see the Girl show here on the Gold Coast in a couple of weeks. I might go, I have to go on my own as I don't know anyone up here yet.
I am a happy chappy but a confused one at the moment.
Thanx for dropping by my blog Splice,
Sounds though you’ve been doing some deep soul searching, I imagine it’s a decision that only you can come to. I wish you all the very best in whatever you decide.
I love the Gold Coast, we often go up there for holidays
As far as training at 6-6.30 am here in winter, it’s bloody cold and dark. But you do what you gotta do, worst thing is getting the ice of the windscreen before you can drive to the gym.:)
Posted by
Ali |
4:25 PM
Yes I am a confused Splice at the moment lol.
Posted by
Splice |
4:38 PM
Thanks Em, you really know what to say at the right time.
You are an amazing person and that is why I am addicited to your blog lol.
You have so much determination and it completely motivates me.
*hugs*
Posted by
Splice |
4:57 PM
WOW me motivate you LOL well then what a lovelth relationship we have motivating each other at the same time hehe what more could a girl want!!!
Em:)
Posted by
Em |
5:39 PM
The world of blogging is a wonderful cycle. I am motivated by all of you. And the support is so good here. This was the best thing I could have done.
Being new on the gold Coast I haven't meet many people as yet, but I have made many friends here who I think about all the time.
Posted by
Splice |
6:49 PM
I agree with Em . . . . you have to start somewhere and the funny thing is you're already started sweetie. :o)
It's okay to feel all these things that you're feeling right at this moment, you wouldn't be human if you didn't!
Josh Dickinson & Tim Martin continually told me last year not to get wrapped up in the axels and take it one day at a time. And you know what, they were both right! I had to trust in them 100% against my better judgement otherwise I would've lost it!
This doesn't have to be a dream it can become a reality. So many women in your position and worse have achieved and will continue to achieve. The only one stopping you now, is you. You have nothing to lose by trying and everything to gain Splice.
Posted by
Anonymous |
6:51 PM
Josh, thank you so very much, I really didn't mean to be a pain about all this.
I look forward to completing my current program.
I am a new person already, I feel and look good and my confidence has increased. I couldn't be happier. I only have four weeks remaining and will make the most of it and enjoy it.
I have seen Lia's amazing transformation, Lia is an inspiration in so many ways but that was the one that brought me to her ;-)
One day at a time for me from now on I think is the best advice for now.
Posted by
Splice |
9:30 PM
Hey Gorgeous,
Yes I know it's an ungodly hour in the morning - can't sleep!
I just realised that you now have a new pic too - and you can see so much difference again in such a short time!
You are going to be sensational. One foot in front of the other hun - you can do it ;)
B xox
PS Thank you for all the lovely comments you have been leaving me :)
Posted by
Sekhmet |
12:50 AM
Splice I think you are pretty amazing to take this step into competition... you look fantastic already, I'm sure you're going to blitz this and step on stage looking fab!
Hilary
Posted by
Miss Positive |
7:22 AM
Never know darl when you decide to compete i might take a gold coast holiday just to come check you out :)
You'll be great the next fur weeks head down bum up and see how far you can take hun:)
You have so much within you!!!!
Go splice go splice go go go splice hehe next i'll have the pom pom's and do a real cheer but hey i am not wearing that tiny skirt that looks like it should be a boob tube!!!!
LMAO
Em:)
Posted by
Em |
8:56 AM
Hi Splice,
I have been following your journey and you are doing really great.
I live in Bris and am heading along to the girlds comp at the arts centre next week to watch a friend from my gym compete.
She used to be an unfit 85kgs and now she is an AMAZING 52kg. I have watched her transform herself over the past 12 months.
Its hard to believe - but you CAN do it - anyone can with the right attitude!
Might see you there! I'll watch out for you.
Andrea
Posted by
Anonymous |
8:38 PM
Yeah like Josh says. LOL!! I was simply the fat chick that just got fit and squeezed into a teeny weeny posing bikini. LOL!!
YOU CAN DO THIS!!
Lia xx
Posted by
Anonymous |
7:07 AM
Lia you simply crack me up LOL.
Andj, I would love to catch up. Please email me.
Posted by
Splice |
11:25 AM
Splice honey, just do it. Give it a shot... take that first step and keep going. What have you got to lose??? You don't ever want to look back on your life and wonder "what if"... so get your a** on that stage... and that's an order... LOL!!
Love Rae xxx
Posted by
RaeC |
10:22 PM
LOL I guess I have been told!!!
Posted by
Splice |
1:12 PM
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